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Cara Delevingne felt “suicidal” while struggling with her sexuality

Cara Delevingne spoke out about accepting her sexuality.

The model and actress told Gwyneth Paltrow that she was raised in a “old-fashioned household” and didn’t understand what it meant to be homosexual on the Goop Podcast.

Cara, who has dated celebrities such as St Vincent and Ashley Benson, reportedly linked her ‘massive depression’ to her inability to embrace her sexuality, which she described as ‘constantly changing.’

She stated, “I didn’t know anyone who was gay. I didn’t know that was a thing and actually I think growing up… I wasn’t knowledgeable of the fact that I was homophobic. The idea of same-sex [partners], I was disgusted by that, in myself. I was like, ‘Oh my God, I would never, that’s disgusting, ugh.’”

Delevingne claims that her mental health suffered as a result of her internal battle with her sexuality.

“I do correlate the massive depression and the suicidal moments of my life [to that] because I was so ashamed of ever being that. But actually, that was the part of me that I love so much and accept,” said the celebrity.

The Paper Towns actor has previously said that she is pansexual. Having a sexual, romantic, or emotional attraction to someone, regardless of their sex or gender identity, is what this phrase refers to. “However one defines themselves, whether it’s ‘they’ or ‘he’ or ‘she,’ I fall in love with the person — and that’s that. I’m attracted to the person,” Delevingne explained in a cover story for Variety in June 2020.

Cara described her sexuality as “constantly changing” while embracing her attraction to both men and women.

‘There is still a part of me where I’m like, ”Oh, I wish I could just be straight”,’ she continued.

‘There is still that side to it. It is really complicated.’

In addition, the English model stated that she had come to terms with her sexuality.

“I feel so much more comfortable in the fluidity of what it is to be just a human and to be an animal, almost, because that’s what we are,” Delevingne remarked. “To trust in your own instincts.”

She said last year that she will explore sexuality in a TV series on gender, sex, and intimacy. On the program, which has the working title Planet Sex, she will discuss her personal difficulties with sexual identity, which she “struggled for years to understand.”

“I can only imagine what having a series like this would have meant to the 14-year-old me who struggled to understand feelings that were seen as non-conventional or different,” she remarked.